When I first began blogging I wasn’t exactly sure what I wanted to do with it. I love writing…it makes me feel as close to free or calm or me or whatever as I think I’ll ever feel but it’s been a rocky, winding road since I let the ink dry on my first poem nearly ten years ago and somewhere along the way sincerity must have fallen out of my backpack. In fact, I believe it’s lying very near Humility and Virtue but those two can roam as they please. I have long since accepted my ridiculous ego and let’s face it, purity has never been a strong suit of mine but I sure would like to get back to Sincerity again.
Although I wasn't always aware of my strengths at the time, I have a motherly adoration for the young woman I once was. Looking back on old journals I can see that I rarely let my tendency to appease cloud my judgment and I generally didn't let fear of external judgment interfere with me being true to who I was.
I don't believe we ever really lose ourselves but I think it's possible and far too easy to oppress our minds until we all but forget who in the hell we are. So while my motivation for blogging may have been to exercise my creativity and maybe share a more intimate side of me (less so than in a journal but more than say, on Facebook) with a few deserving and like-minded people, I think that my truest intention is to figure out how to be that girl again.
I don't believe we ever really lose ourselves but I think it's possible and far too easy to oppress our minds until we all but forget who in the hell we are. So while my motivation for blogging may have been to exercise my creativity and maybe share a more intimate side of me (less so than in a journal but more than say, on Facebook) with a few deserving and like-minded people, I think that my truest intention is to figure out how to be that girl again.
Of course, I needed to grow and I am not denying the importance of evolving when life blesses us with responsibility but I think there is a delicate line between a natural maturation and a forced one and those of us who continuously try to grow up too quickly often have to backtrack and fill in some of the places we overlooked…if we ever expect to really get anywhere useful, that is.
And that’s kind of where I am at now.
And that’s kind of where I am at now.
So please bear with me, I am still getting the gist of this blogging thing. In the near future I plan to make my blog space a little homier- add a few good details and maybe a few pictures here and there- and write more consistently. Maybe I’ll even get a theme going, although don’t be surprised if the theme ends up being sporadic, slightly exaggerated anecdotes…that’s sort of my thing.
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